Saturday, January 16, 2010

I'm being blatantly honest here.......

On Friday the 22nd we have our gender ultrasound. I am so nervous and excited all rolled into one. I am nervous that we are going to have a boy and that I am going to be disappointed at first and once it sets in, I will be fine. I will be fine because we WILL get to bring this baby home and that's all that matters. I am being honest by saying that I really want a girl. I want to give my husband another daughter, a daughter that we get to keep forever and bring home with us. He was so excited when we found out where were having Moira. I have everything ready for a little girl. I am afraid that Moira was our only chance at a daughter.
Boy or girl, we'll be fine. We'll be fine because we are having a baby, another baby, a baby that will bring the smile back and mend our broken hearts just a little. Anyway, so there is my honesty for today! Sigh.....

11 comments:

The Blue Sparrow said...

Praying for a baby girl! And if God decides otherwise, Ill be praying for an easy delivery of a happy healthy baby regardless! *HUGS*

Franchesca Cox said...

All I can say is me too!!! I wanted a girl with this pregnancy but God saw fit to gift us with a precious boy. I can't wait to meet him :)

I hope and pray everything goes well with the rest of your pregnancy.

XO

Jayme said...

After Raime, I wanted another girl SO BAD when I was pregnant with Lili, but I was so very afraid to even hope for one.

Mandy said...

I appreciate your honesty. I was very honest about the fact that I wanted a girl when I was pregnant and got a few judgmental comments about it.

Secretly I never believe people when they say they don't care what they are having when they are pregnant. I think deep down *everyone* has a preference (even if it's a small one) whether they admit it or not.

And I'll be honest (you've inspired me! haha) if we ever have another baby... I want ANOTHER girl =)

Obviously if we have a boy I'm not going to put him up for adoption or make him sleep in the garage, I'm going to love every little ounce of him to pieces and devote as much care, attention, love, and nurture as one human possibly can. But I'm just saying, if I had a choice, I'd have another daughter ♥ There. I said it. =)

Mackenzie's Mommy said...

I know exactly how you feel and I'm glad you're being honest...makes me feel better about having those thoughts too. I'm not pregnant anymore but I still wonder how I'd react to having a boy instead of a girl. Good luck at the ultrasound and let us know!! Praying you get everything you want and most importantly a healthy baby <3
xo
Ashley

Elizabeth said...

I wanted a girl with both my pregnancies and ended up with boys. I have always wanted a girl and am a bit sad I haven't got one but I love my boys and am sooooo happy with them. God will decide what He wants you to have and I know you will love him/her with all your heart (minus the peace in heaven) because you are a wonderful mom. *hugs*

Andrea said...

We WILL...oh how I love those 2 little words.

Sending you love and prayers as your celebrate your Rainbow Miracle :)

-T said...

I read somewhere that said if you have a girl first chances are you will have another girl. I've had a feeling from the start that she's a SHE, but we'll see soon enough!

If He and Moira think you need a boy, a boy he will be. I hear boys love their mamas so much and if you're given a boy, I think it's their way of sending you extra love!
But, I think it's a girl! *hugs*

amymarten said...

Thanks for your honesty, Alison!

I think frugally I want a boy, but that's because I have a bin of every size of boy clothes from Caleb. However, everyone thinks this is a girl! I really would be happy with both... only because I know God gives us the strength to take care of all the children he gives us.

Good luck on Friday... we went last monday but our little one has its legs crossed :(

Holly said...

I hope you get your little girl. I certainly understand because I hope our next baby is a little girl. I want that so much!

Mary said...

I am praying that you have a chance to experience a daughter in your life again.