Hope on the horizon.......

Two things happened today to give us hope. Dave was offered an extra position at work with a wonderful stipend that will help us pay off some bills next school year, save some money, and possibly allow me to stay home with our next baby at least for a year. That is what I am most excited about. After everything we have been through with Moira, the possibility that I could get to stay home with our child makes it worth while. Dave said that is why he applied for the job, so I could stay home. Sigh.....my dream come true!!! :)

We also met with the fertility doctor, although it was sad we were back there, it also was hopeful. I had blood work done today. I will get the results tomorrow. She will be able to tell me if I have already ovulated. If I haven't ovulated yet, she gave me a prescription to start medication that will force a period for me. If I have ovulated, than we need to wait for a period. Once I get my period in August, I will call the office and we will begin starting the Clomid, IUI, etc. Dave and I decided not to try on our own in August. We want me to get healthy, i.e. lose some more weight and work on my blood pressure first. I would like to lose about 10 pounds in the next few months, not sure if it's possible, but I will try! Then we'll start treatments in the fall. He is just very concerned about my BP and me too, so we want that under control first. We are working on it. I see my primary care doctor on the 20th to check in and see what the next step is! YAY!

OK, so there is my good news for the day. Dave's new position at work, he will still be teaching, this will be extra and on top of his teaching duties. I will explain more once he says it's OK too. YAY!!

update on autopsy and doctor's appointments

Here is a quick update. I will try and update with more details later as I am still trying to process all of the information. Yesterday was a long day. We started with a 10 am apt. with the therapist we are seeing together. She is wonderful and knows how to ask us the right questions. We both really like her and like our sessions with her. Then I had my 11:30 am 6 week post-partum check up with my OB. Everything is healing wonderfully and I am cleared to start doing some simple exercising and then work my way up. Now I need to find the motivation! My blood pressure was fairly normal too, 120/82. Then at 1 pm we met with Moira's NICU doctor and my OB to go over the autopsy results. We didn't learn anything new, everything was about the same and what we had already learned while we were still in the hospital. The only new thing was that we learned my placenta was too small to support Moira's life, for whatever reason it didn't grow. That was probably due to my BP issues. So, that was hard to hear, but we did have an idea that something was wrong with the placenta from the beginning of all of this, we just didn't know what. We were told that there really is no way of knowing that ahead of time. The only thing we can do is be watched more closely the next time around and also as soon as my BP increases, I will go on medication to keep it normal. Sigh.....it was a long day.

The good news, if there can be any good news, is that we have an appointment with the fertility doctor in 2 weeks to discuss our options and my OB wants me to make an appointment with a high risk OB to ask questions to her about high BP, etc. in preparation for our next pregnancy. I also have an appointment with my primary care doc. tomorrow to check in with her and see what she thinks of my BP. Like I said, it was fairly normal yesterday, but we want to see what she thinks and whether or not I should start meds now. So, lots of appointments will be coming up in order to prepare us for our next pregnancy.

On a side note, one of our 5 cats, Kismet, was hit by a car last night and left to die on the side of the road, right in front of our neighbor's house. Noone came looking for us or anything and Dave was out in back mowing the lawn. We found out because a couple walking down the street saw her and then saw that we had 2 cats in our front yard. So, they were nice and came looking for Dave and asked him. It was awful!! Not a great way to end the day. People on our road drive way too fast and it's crazy! I think we are going to try and do something about it with our neighbors. Maybe put HUGE speed bumps in front of our house or big orange cones or something telling people to slow down!!! UGH!!! I hate how inconsiderate people can be.