Possibly a purpose???

Maybe you all remember this post where I talked about having a purpose in life after the loss of my first born daughter. I have been searching for my purpose, wondering what it is now that I don't have my daughter here with me. After chatting this morning with a new online friend, hope you don't mind me mentioning you Debbie, I think I may have an idea of what my purpose is now.
While pregnant with Moira, I had pregnancy induced hypertension, PIH, and that is possibly what caused Moira's brain damage and eventual death. Moira was as close to stillbirth as you can possibly get. My friend Debbie had PIH as well and her daughter Sophie was stillborn as well. Debbie had a friend who just had a baby who was stillborn and also had PIH. Is there a link to this?? I have no idea, I don't have a medical background, but what I do have is a drive to make people aware of this. I want to make woman aware of this, if you have high blood pressure while pregnant, be aware of ALL of the things that can happen to your unborn baby. Speak up, talk to your OB, you need to be your own advocate. Luckily I have an amazing OB who was keeping an eye one me, but what happened to Moira, noone would have been able to know about it.
So Debbie and I chatted some more and the two of us want to do our research, figure out a way to make woman aware of this and what can happen and to feel empowered to be their own advocate. We have no idea where to begin or where to go, but we are going to figure out something!! :) In October Debbie and I are going to try to meet up when I go with Dave to conference not far from her hometown. That will be so much fun to meet her after all of this time we have been chatting! She has been a wonderful support to me during this awful journey I am on. Sigh....Anyway, thanks Debbie for our chat this morning.

What's your purpose?

As a loss mama, do you ever feel like you have no purpose in life after the loss of your child? Maybe you lost your 2nd baby and you have an older child that you need to be there for or maybe you lost your 1st baby and now you have nothing. What do you do? What is your purpose in life now? I am currently in the situation. It's kind of how I have been feeling the past few days. What is my purpose? Moira was my first baby, I was supposed to be off all summer so I could take care of her before going back to work in the fall. Now all I have are my cats. They don't need me the way a baby needs me. They just want some food and to be let inside and outside all day long. My husband doesn't need me the way a baby needs me. So, what do I do now?
I don't have much to look forward to during the day other than the fact that Dave comes home from work around 12:30ish and we can have the rest of the day to do whatever together. I am really slacking on the house cleaning stuff and not really feeling like being much of a housewife either. I am focusing on getting healthy and getting ready for another baby, but that doesn't take much to do. Sigh....so what is my purpose? What should I be doing with my days? I don't know what to do. I am working on it. I guess I am just looking forward to the 2nd week of August when we will go to Cape Cod and be on vacation and Dave will be done with summer school and then he'll have 3 weeks off before school starts.