My first knitting project!!

So, I have been taking a knitting class, not sure if I have mentioned that here or not. I started on my first project, a blanket for Charlotte. I am so proud of myself because it's looking great. I had to go and get some help from the woman I am taking the class from because I had messed up. She helped me out. We had to take a lot of it out, so it was like I was starting over again. That's OK, I spent today working on it so I could catch up. I did A LOT today! So, I wanted to post a picture of my progress so far.

update and baby pictures!!

OK, here is a quick update! We had our ultrasound yesterday. We were in there for an hour!! The tech. was very good!! She checked at least 4 times to make sure baby really is a girl! It was awesome! She checked in the beginning and then towards the end and no little penis popped out, so she is almost 100% sure. My peri happened to be there, so the tech. checked in with her and then she ended up coming in to see us. We were a little worried that she was coming in, but she said everything looks great and there were a few measurements that weren't really clear because baby was moving so much. :) So, she wants me to come back in 4 weeks to check again and make sure baby is growing like she should be. I think she is just being extra careful with us, which is fine with me!
After that, we went to see my OB. She was so happy for us too.

It is looking like we are going with Charlotte Eowyn (A-o-win). Eowyn is from Lord of the Rings, Dave's all time favorite story, movie, etc.! She is a warrior and Dave said this baby girl is his warrior who will come home with us. He is very adamant that we use Eowyn for that reason and I don't want to fight him! Plus, I really like the name. We also like the idea of the nickname Charlie or Charley or something like that for the spelling for Charlotte.

Here are some pics of our little Charlotte!


Baby girl parts!!


Profile picture!

Christmas.....Bah Humbug?

So, there is this commercial on TV that I just HATE right now. It's a commercial for a local jewelery store. It's this woman rocking her baby girl in front of the Christmas tree and her husband comes downstairs. She says it's 2am and the baby just fell asleep. The dad says something along the lines of "It's 2am on our first Christmas together as a family." ***CRIES*** It makes me want to scream! That's supposed to be Dave and I and Moira and it's not us. It will NOT be us this year. I want to throw something at the TV whenever that commercial comes on. I mean, we do have a lot to be happy about this Christmas and a lot to be sad about as well. We are expecting a new baby, but we are also mourning the loss of our daughter who should be here with us. I am having a really hard time getting into the Christmas spirit this year.
Anyway, there we have it. Moira is never far from my thoughts. I think of her everyday. I think of holding her, smelling her, and just feeling her in my arms, wishing I could hold her again, but this time never let go. This new baby is a blessing for us, a way for us to heal and to maybe fill a little bit of the hole left behind after Moira died, but this baby won't be replacement for Moira. Nothing or noone will ever replace our first born daughter. We are looking to the future now and trying to think about this baby and take everything one day at a time, but also never forgetting our sweet angel.

Special Announcement!

Well, my husband Dave and I are so happy to announce that we are expecting our Rainbow Baby! We are both so excited and still can't believe it! I will be 10 weeks on Monday and I am due June 28, 2010. I will be watched very closely, including weekly ultrasounds starting at 28 weeks and then starting at 32 weeks I'll start going in twice a week. We are hoping for a c-section at 37 weeks, but still have to talk to the high risk OB about that. We already know that I will NOT go past 38 weeks.
I am scared, nervous, excited, happy all rolled into one. My blood pressure has been great, so I am not too worried about that! I had my first OB appointment on Wednesday and everything was great! We were there for an hour and a half with the nurse and then with my OB. The nurse is my favorite nurse practitioner and she even gave us a peek at the little peanut! Since it was too early to hear the heartbeat on the doppler, she rolled in their portable ultrasound machine. It was so great!!
So, here I am pregnant after a full-term loss and scared out of my mind, as well as so incredibly excited.

Below is my ultrasound from
7 weeks 2 days!