Monday, August 24, 2009

Mixed emotions

So, I have mixed emotions about starting work again next week. I haven't actually worked since my last day of work on April 17th. The following week was our April vacation and so I decided not to go back to work after vacation because it would only be 2 weeks before Moira's due date.
Last year when I was getting ready to start work, it was a new job, a new school year, and I was pregnant with Moira. I had so many hopes and dreams and was so excited and happy. Little did I know what the end of the school year would bring. This year I will be starting that same job with new students, same co-workers, no baby, and I am not pregnant yet. I have no baby to show for my school year long pregnancy and my maternity leave. I am feeling so overwhelmed and anxious!
Luckily I have an amazing boss, she is the special education department head and the supervisor of us instructional aides. Anyway, I e-mailed her today and asked if I could come in for a visit if she was going to be in this week. I explained to her that I am feeling overwhelmed and anxious about the start of the school year and I would love to just chat with her and hopefully help ease some of my anxiety. She, of course, said yes! I am going in tomorrow morning for a little while to visit her and will hopefully feel a little better about the start of the school year on Monday. Actually the students don't report until Tuesday and we have Friday off for a long Labor Day weekend. So, it will be a 3 day week with the students and a 4 day work week for the teachers, etc. I'm feeling a little better now!


beth said...

Good luck, sweetie! It WILL be hard at times, but you CAN do it! It'll be good to get back into the routine, right? Maybe if you can get back to that routine, it'll relax you a bit and give your body and mind a break...might be good for your blood pressure!

Sarah and Andy said...

Hoping that the meeting eases some of your anxiety. Praying for that natural BFP and a great school year!

Prather Family said...

I know it has been a hard year for you and going back to work can be tough after all you have been through. I wish you luck and hope that the school year goes well and that BFP is right around the corner.

I will be thinking of you next week.

Alison said...

Thanks ladies! You all are my cheering section and I appreciate more than I think I could ever tell you!! Amy you always have something to say that brightens my day and makes me feel better!!
Thanks ladies!!